Clueless at 34 PDF Print E-mail
Written by OHmommy   
Monday, 29 August 2011 00:00

I don't know what I want to be, when I grow up.


I don't know what to blog about anymore.


I do know that MarinkaNYC left an awesome comment here, as did many others that made me think. Ouch.


I do know that the HUGE hoop earrings that I purchased at H&M for three dollars, rock my world.



What do people say about hoop earrings? The bigger they are....


I do know that I'm feeling clueless. I have no idea where my path will lead me. Doesn't this sound like the beginning of a "midlife crisis"?


I'm 34 and clueless.

Last Updated on Monday, 29 August 2011 08:52


# Loukia 2011-08-29 00:47
You're exactly where you need to be. No one has it all figured out! At least, that's what I like to tell myself. xo
# Amy 2011-08-29 06:37
You are who you are. Beautiful, kind, smart and strong. Everyone hits a bump or mid life crisis, you just have to weather it and find your passion about something and write about it. Because you are a great writer. Hugs and rock your hoops!
# Managed Chaos 2011-08-29 07:34
I think we might be twins...OK, I'd be the older one, but still. I'm questioning so many things in my life right now and not sure what's next. Uncertainty sucks. But you, are totally awesome.
# lceel 2011-08-29 07:41
No, Paulina. You are not suffering a midlife crisis. You are just beginning to wake up - to look around - to really become aware of the world around you. You have a LONG way to go before any midlife crisis sets in.

As for all that awareness you are now finding in yourself - let me tell you - I don't know what I want to be when I grow up, either.
# LOVD 2011-08-29 08:41
Hoop earrings are like the graduation diploma for the little kid phase of motherhood. The phase of potentially having your kids rip the earrings out of your is over. Congratulations and keep seeking so you shall find (oneday)!
# Miss Britt 2011-08-29 08:59
Not at all.

Actually, I think it sounds like the beginning of figuring stuff out. We are going to have such wonderful talks this week, I can tell. :-)
# Kasia 2011-08-29 09:00
You and 6 billion others! We are all human, therefore are clueless. Go with your gut. You know whats best for your family and children and others for theirs. Trust that.
# Angie Pangie 2011-08-29 09:08
Keep rocking those hoop earrings, and good things will happen.

That's about the best assvice I can give considering I'm going through the same thing.
# soccermomof3 2011-08-29 09:26
I'm right there with ya.
# PolPrairieMama 2011-08-29 09:32
Mama, I feel the same way! When you figure it out, I think you will have found the secret of life. Pozdrawiam!
# Ann 2011-08-29 09:39
I was just reading Pema Chodron last night and you made me think of this:

"your coziness has been addressed"

"when all the walls fall down, when the cocoon completely disappears and we are totally open to whatever may happen, with no withdrawing, no centralizing into ourselves. That is what we aspire to, the warrior's journey. This is what stirs us: leaping, being thrown out of the nest, going through the initiation rites, growing up, stepping into something that is uncertain and unknown"

"Comfortable With Uncertainty" pg. 66

Love, Your friendly neighborhood Buddism-spouting Jewish friend.
# Amber 2011-08-29 10:32
It's tough. Being pregnant, I am planning on becoming a SAHM. I am nervous. I have heard that the longer you stay at home, the harder it is to go back to teaching (or whatever job you had). I guess that's like anything else (going back to college, dating after a lull, etc). You taught before, would you think about subbing at a better school, in a better area, seeing if you like it, and narrowing down options from there? If you like it, keep subbing this year and go back full time next year. If you don't, at least you've narrowed down options. Then, there is always being a writing professor (could be part or fulll time). Myself, I am thinking about working at Pottery barn part time when I am a stay at home. The good thing about teaching is it's only 180 days (that's not even half the year), and you get off of school when the kids do...
# Amber 2011-08-29 10:34
Ohhh, and there are plenty of permanent subs in schools; on-call for whenever they want to sub, or when someone needs them. The perk about that is that they can always say "not today."
# ClassyFabSarah 2011-08-29 13:23
I'm 24 and clueless... soo, welcome to the club?
# Carissa 2011-08-29 19:31
It's when you turn 38. I just grew up one day. It was a magical day covered in sprinkles and sunshine.

I promise.
38 is the magic number.

You laugh in the face of Dr. Bills. You sneer at lightening storms. Kids' fevers? They don't scare me.

bring it.
I can take it. I'm a GROWN up now.

I'm sure something new will hit but till them. I'm going with 38 is the magic number.

Plus you have given me a blog post topic. thanks for that! :)
# Marta 2011-08-29 20:50
I know whatever you decide to do you're going to be amazing at it. That I'm really sure of.

Also the hoops are hot!
# allison 2011-08-29 21:30
I agree with Kasia - rock the F on!
# Sarah 2011-08-29 22:49
Your post totally hit home and came right at the perfect moment to let me know that I am not alone...and neither are you!

36 years old with four girls. Used to be a teacher. Have NO desire to go back but am itching to get out and do something...anything...for myself. But what? What am I really good at besides cleaning up after my kids? (and I am not always great with that!)

Personally, I am in awe of all that you are an adventurous and FUN mom, an amazing writer and beautiful fashionista!
# Jamie 2011-08-30 21:21
Acceptance is the first step. You and those big hoop earrings will rock whatever comes next. WHATEVER comes next!
# Marinka 2011-09-01 07:20
You have Easter European parents. They've already figured it out for you.
# Mrs. R 2011-09-07 09:27
I love your blog and honesty. You have it together, trust me. I think people that are really living life will want to try something new and evolve. That is living honey and it is a good thing!!

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Pauline Karwowski.

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Happily married mother to 3 Cleveland natives: Jay the son, Lola the daughter, and Fifi the banshee.

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